It's like his batteries have shorted & his body is discharging so much electrical energy that he just can't be still.


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oh, i'm a day ahead, again...thought Friday was Caturday, so today "feels like" Sunday...oh, and yesterday (Friday), I could not get into any of the thousand things i have "tabled"...my energy is an every-other day thang: one day full-ON, one day half mast...Friday, i had that grounding impulse (horizontal worked better than vertical

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oh, i was dreaming in the wee hours of a "country club", a labyrinth-type setting, and i was searching for the way outdoors...the dream started with a riding mower, a huge commercial type--which i discovered busily clipping away my messy front yard...in the dream, the house/yard are in a "country club" setting...a woman/real estate agent appears who explains that the adjacent property is for sale, and i don't have the opportunity to ask if there has been a mistake (mowing my lawn instead of the sale property) before the scene changes once more, and I am in this huge, indoor environment--a grocery--and a woman is analyzing/doing a $ accounting of the items in my cart which were purchased at a competing grocery

---then, a woman appears with a baby girl, which she hands to me...i hold the little girl and speak with her, and feel such a sweetness/gentleness...then the scene changes again, and i am back in the labyrinth, in a cafe where folks are eating gourmet delights and seeming oh so bored...the waiters tell me the place "sucks", and they direct me towards outdoors...
i woke...could hardly wait to get into the shower, and come to full waking consciousness...it rained last night, no wind, very quiet this Caturday morning...

"Silent friend of many distances, feel
How your breath enlarges all of space...
In this immeasurable darkness, be the power"...
_R.m. Rilke
"Just keep breathing"...Love